John Lennon's death and Paul McCartney's feelings about it

John Lennon was shot by Mark Chapman on 8 December 1980. Death itself is still a mystery and some argue that Mark Chapman was just the hit man. However, we will never have the chance to know the truth. Mark Chapman will always be known by the majority as the freak who had a twisted mind and shot John Lennon for his own reasons.
After John's unfortunate death Paul McCartney (his best friend and partner from The Beatles) said the following:



It may seem a bit ignorant and insensitive at the first glance. However, if you know much about them and their relationship you would know that there is more than that meets the eye. Paul seems to be denying the fact that his beloved friend is dead. He seems to be trying not to break down and most probably he is high as well while saying "Drag isn't it?".

I may sound too certain while writing all these but there are supportive records to my claim.
Here's an example of Macca's true feelings about the happening and his song "Here Today" which was written for John:



and this one is another piece which shows Macca's grieving (pay attention to his speech in the beginning):




and this one just the one that made me cry as Paul cries while singing... :(





After watching all these I'm pretty sure about McCartney's feelings.

John Lennon should have been alive right now. I love him so much! :(